What is your word?
It has been a hot minute hasn't it. And although we are coming to an end of the first month of 2018 I feel like I'm only just getting the swing of it. Anyone with me on that?
Tonight there is a Super Blue Blood Moon. It is a once in a 150 year thing. So its a pretty big deal. I think there is so much of that crazy energy going around that it has kicked me out of the funk I've been in for the first bit of 2018. That and Erica came around with Daisy (her 6-month old pup) and we had pizza. So it was a good night. Right now my favourite candle is burning. It smells like caramel. Believe me its good (shout out to Luke's mum for getting it for me. THANKS AMANDA). And I'm home alone because Luke is out! It is really nice just taking some time to breath through things and slow down. The last two months have felt so hectic and there have been a lot of emotions that I just didn't know how to deal with. So I shut down a bit. A lot of the time it felt like a rollercoaster and I'm only getting off it now; asking myself questions on what I should take into this new phase, what I should leave behind and what have I outgrown. A super blue blood moon is apparently a harbinger of drastic change. And I intent to go into it on the right foot by realigning with my intentions for the year and shedding all that no longer serves me.
My word for 2018 is NOURISH and I intent to encompass that across all avenues; not just in relation to food but also my mind, connections, body etc etc. I have a whole heap of insecurities that weigh me down on a daily basis and I feel like simply nourishing myself is the best place to start in order to one day love myself. I think acceptance is probably the first step. And then I'll get to love eventually. My word for last year was HEAL and I made great progress on healing, still a long way to go. But progress none the less. Nourishing will only help that. What is your word?
Sometimes I get so fed up with being depressed or having this crazy ass anxiety. I just want to fast forward till its gone. And I worry that it never will fully go. I thought about taking a whole year away from creating content to just work on my healing. But though scary I came to the conclusion that I'd rather be open about what I'm going through in the hope that it could help someone else who is going through the same. Vulnerability is so powerful. And by simply talking more about things that are often taboo we can kick this idea of perfection (so wildly promoted by the media and social media) that we are all aiming for. I was going back through my (now private) blog archives and saw a quote that really resonated. "I think we are like stars. Something happens to burst us open; but when we burst open and think we are dying; we're actually turning into a supernova. And then when we look at ourselves again, we see that we're suddenly more beautiful then we ever were before". This quote made me see depression in a new light. If I wasn't going through this wild shit I wouldn't have even begun the wellness journey that I'm on. And we wouldn't be here. It's funny the way this world works.
So here is to the new phase of URBN WILD; which I sort of started last year. Me simply sharing my personal journey of wellness with you and what I find along the way. One things for sure; I really have missed this blogging thing. And this time, (because I'm being authentically me for the first time ever on my blog) I have a funny feeling its going to stick.